Discovering Me.

It is just another day. A day off from college. Getting a little me-time, I begin typing whatever comes to my mind. Nothing does actually..
So, I look at the things around me for some inspiration.. suddenly the intention of looking around (to find a topic to write on) is suddenly replaced by something so sublime that sends me into one of those retrospective modes.
I'm sitting on a bed.. my teddy bear by my side.. study table on the left.. walls decorated with all kinds of Godly posters. Everything I had, I have. Then what is it that makes me so restless, so insecure.. so incomplete?
I'm here in college for the last five months and I've been looking for the answer ever since. Maybe it is my Mother I miss so much or the comforts of 'Home'.. Maybe it is the beautiful sunsets in the hillside or the mesmerising river-view. There's so much I have, and there's so much I don't.

These are two different worlds.. and my existence, like liquid, takes the form of the vessel.

 At home, I may be wilder than the street dog and it feels okay.. I can doze off till afternoon and still feel it's so early.. There's a reason why it's called Home after all ~ because you know that no matter how much you mess up, those people back there will love you, come what may. They'll back you up, care for you, protect you and even if there is no one.. they are there. Always.

In here, it's the Real world. The Big Bad World. There are good people and there are monsters wanting to eat you up. And everyday is a battle to survive. Sometimes you win and sometimes you just have to give in. People say College Life is the Best Part of one's Life and that every experience, every encounter with Reality and how you deal with situations everyday, brings you closer to who you are, what your capabilities are and who you can be in future. They reflect the future-you. Theories, Philosophies.. Stories and facts.. True or not, I'll have to find out!

"I-Me-Myself", they say, is the most selfish one-liner. But I think discovering that "I-Me-Myself" is the actually motive of your Life- the reason why you live. Who I am today, has been a combined effort of so many people.. I owe all my goodness to my parents and all the bads in me, I owe them to me! But what I am going to be tomorrow, would be largely my take on Life.. an unveiled mystery I am looking forward to.

A Town of Memories...: Last Night @ Jampot.

A Town of Memories...: Last Night @ Jampot.: To flash back, it's been 12 long years that hardly seem long now. It's weird to see, hear n feel things for the last time knowin' dey...

Last Night @ Jampot.

To flash back, it's been 12 long years that hardly seem long now.

It's weird to see, hear n feel things for the last time knowin' dey r nvr gonna b d same...One by one.. everything, suddenly, seems to be fallin' apart! it's all finishin' and becomin 'The Last ___ "!  First it was school, dn friends, dn home.. n 2mrw night, it's goin 2 b ds town.. ds town where I grew up from childhood 2 adolescence, from Vaseline to lip gloss, from brain-vita to Fashionista, from "Hello, How are you?" to "Hey, Wsup?"..

Staring down from my balcony at the darkness, interrupted by the shards of moonlight and starlight, and listenin' to the silence.. It's hard to realise that these things are over.. (maybe) forevr!

So ds s thank everybody.. EVERYBODY.. who was here to make this ride so good!!

It's a new chapter of the Book... hope it's as good as this one!! :-)

A Town of Memories...: Kahaani.

A Town of Memories...: Kahaani.: Aankhon ke pardon pe pyaara sa jo tha woh nazara.. Dhua sa ban kar udh gaya ab na raha.. Baithe the hum toh khwabon ke chaon ke tale.....

Kahaani.

Aankhon ke pardon pe pyaara sa jo tha woh nazara..
Dhua sa ban kar udh gaya ab na raha..
Baithe the hum toh khwabon ke chaon ke tale..
Chod ke unko jaane kahan ko chale...

Kahani khatam hai ya shuruwaat hone ko hai,
Subha nayi hai yeh ya phir raat hone ko hai?!

Aane wala waqt dega panha yeh..
Ya phir se milenge woh raahein..

Khabar kya, kya pataa!

A Town of Memories...: Same old NOTHINGNESS!!

A Town of Memories...: Same old NOTHINGNESS!!: This morning I saw so many kids [not that m too old, but that's wt i feel like callin' dem] going 2 school with hell lot of dissatisfaction...

Same old NOTHINGNESS!!

This morning I saw so many kids [not that m too old, but that's wt i feel like callin' dem] going 2 school with hell lot of dissatisfaction, grudge and unhappy faces.. like they are forced to do somethg against their will. I remembered my dayz.. hating to get up in the morning, having to get clad in d same uniform everyday and carrying that 5 tonne bag; endless homework at school, surprise tests, boring tiffin and the heat!! It's strange how we scoff about things when we have them and realize what we had, only after it'd gone too far away. Same story.. when I was a schoolgirl, everyone else I knew was.. so? big deal?! And now that I'm not one.. I get philosophical about it! 

Compared to this nothingness m going thru now.. I realise that life as a scholar was so much more happening! At least there was something to look forward to when I woke up every morning. 

At least I had "good Morning" to say.. now my morning begins at afternoon! Although it was the same uniform everyday.. at least I didn't sit before my wardrobe for half an hour deciding what to wear! As for that schoolbag and homework.. I think those are the only things i don't miss and I'm glad they are over. Surprise tests made me scoff and grunt at  people who would know that i hate it... and letting people know ur dislikeness is better than screaming at the unfair football referees on TV who wouldn't even look at the camera once!! hunh! N boring tiffins made me grab tastier ones.. so that wasn't really much of  a  problem! As for that heat, yes it was very oppressive and irritating.. but the run for "under the fan" made me laugh more than "Funny American Videos": on you-tube!

I don't know if I told all this to you.. or I am consoling myself!! But I feel like tellin' those kids that Live it as long as u have it. Make the most of it.. so that when u don't hve it any more, you would know that you lived it so much that you couldn't have taken in more!!!