A Town of Memories...: Same old NOTHINGNESS!!

A Town of Memories...: Same old NOTHINGNESS!!: This morning I saw so many kids [not that m too old, but that's wt i feel like callin' dem] going 2 school with hell lot of dissatisfaction...

Same old NOTHINGNESS!!

This morning I saw so many kids [not that m too old, but that's wt i feel like callin' dem] going 2 school with hell lot of dissatisfaction, grudge and unhappy faces.. like they are forced to do somethg against their will. I remembered my dayz.. hating to get up in the morning, having to get clad in d same uniform everyday and carrying that 5 tonne bag; endless homework at school, surprise tests, boring tiffin and the heat!! It's strange how we scoff about things when we have them and realize what we had, only after it'd gone too far away. Same story.. when I was a schoolgirl, everyone else I knew was.. so? big deal?! And now that I'm not one.. I get philosophical about it! 

Compared to this nothingness m going thru now.. I realise that life as a scholar was so much more happening! At least there was something to look forward to when I woke up every morning. 

At least I had "good Morning" to say.. now my morning begins at afternoon! Although it was the same uniform everyday.. at least I didn't sit before my wardrobe for half an hour deciding what to wear! As for that schoolbag and homework.. I think those are the only things i don't miss and I'm glad they are over. Surprise tests made me scoff and grunt at  people who would know that i hate it... and letting people know ur dislikeness is better than screaming at the unfair football referees on TV who wouldn't even look at the camera once!! hunh! N boring tiffins made me grab tastier ones.. so that wasn't really much of  a  problem! As for that heat, yes it was very oppressive and irritating.. but the run for "under the fan" made me laugh more than "Funny American Videos": on you-tube!

I don't know if I told all this to you.. or I am consoling myself!! But I feel like tellin' those kids that Live it as long as u have it. Make the most of it.. so that when u don't hve it any more, you would know that you lived it so much that you couldn't have taken in more!!!

A Town of Memories...: Uncertain.

A Town of Memories...: Uncertain.: It's a weird feeling.. this intermediate phase between end of school n beginnin' of college!! A few months back.. all I wanted was my boa...

Uncertain.

It's a weird feeling.. this intermediate phase between end of school n beginnin' of college!!


A few months back.. all I wanted was my boards to get over somehow n get over those insomniac nights!! I was so stupid to not realize that the actual sleeplessness begins after the exams get over!!


 All these years.. after every ladder, there was a platform waiting for me with a fresh set of challenges. I always knew where to go and what to do. Never in my Life, have I felt so uncertain and unsure. It's like I'm standing on the last rung of the ladder (with one foot in air).. and I don't even know what's on the other side - a new platform with it's new vistas to venture or a barren land waiting for me to fall!

Maybe it's because there is so much at stake.. all at once! Thousand different emotions are gambling in my head and each one seems to dominate the other ~ happiness, excitement, anxiety, fear, expectations, hope, nervousness, pressure, stress.. etc etc!! It's hard.. clinging on. Everyday a new page seems to deteriorate my confidence and self-esteem n the evergreen moral support of "It's goin' to be okay.. Don't worry!" is not really working.  It's a tym I wish I cud fast-forward a few months n never cum back to it again.

Everything ahead is like a mystery box decorated with a question mark. It's a lottery - of fate, hard work and desires.