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Tuesday 27 March 2012
A Town of Memories...: Uncertain.
A Town of Memories...: Uncertain.: It's a weird feeling.. this intermediate phase between end of school n beginnin' of college!! A few months back.. all I wanted was my boa...
Uncertain.
It's a weird feeling.. this intermediate phase between end of school n beginnin' of college!!
A few months back.. all I wanted was my boards to get over somehow n get over those insomniac nights!! I was so stupid to not realize that the actual sleeplessness begins after the exams get over!!
All these years.. after every ladder, there was a platform waiting for me with a fresh set of challenges. I always knew where to go and what to do. Never in my Life, have I felt so uncertain and unsure. It's like I'm standing on the last rung of the ladder (with one foot in air).. and I don't even know what's on the other side - a new platform with it's new vistas to venture or a barren land waiting for me to fall!
Maybe it's because there is so much at stake.. all at once! Thousand different emotions are gambling in my head and each one seems to dominate the other ~ happiness, excitement, anxiety, fear, expectations, hope, nervousness, pressure, stress.. etc etc!! It's hard.. clinging on. Everyday a new page seems to deteriorate my confidence and self-esteem n the evergreen moral support of "It's goin' to be okay.. Don't worry!" is not really working. It's a tym I wish I cud fast-forward a few months n never cum back to it again.
Everything ahead is like a mystery box decorated with a question mark. It's a lottery - of fate, hard work and desires.
A few months back.. all I wanted was my boards to get over somehow n get over those insomniac nights!! I was so stupid to not realize that the actual sleeplessness begins after the exams get over!!
All these years.. after every ladder, there was a platform waiting for me with a fresh set of challenges. I always knew where to go and what to do. Never in my Life, have I felt so uncertain and unsure. It's like I'm standing on the last rung of the ladder (with one foot in air).. and I don't even know what's on the other side - a new platform with it's new vistas to venture or a barren land waiting for me to fall!
Maybe it's because there is so much at stake.. all at once! Thousand different emotions are gambling in my head and each one seems to dominate the other ~ happiness, excitement, anxiety, fear, expectations, hope, nervousness, pressure, stress.. etc etc!! It's hard.. clinging on. Everyday a new page seems to deteriorate my confidence and self-esteem n the evergreen moral support of "It's goin' to be okay.. Don't worry!" is not really working. It's a tym I wish I cud fast-forward a few months n never cum back to it again.
Everything ahead is like a mystery box decorated with a question mark. It's a lottery - of fate, hard work and desires.
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